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Reflections on hockey reunion
REFLECTIONS ON MOMENTS IN TIME
It happened in the late winter of 1958. I was 16 and a junior at Cambridge Latin. Eighteen kids who didn't know any better had just won the Massachusetts state hockey championship and, inexplicably, I was one of them. It was a huge and defining moment in all of our lives. Fourteen Irish kids -- mostly first or second generation Americans -- two Italians, a Saint George, two Quimbys (vaguely threatening English-sounding names), and a Remelka! Many on the team were from my neighborhood corner or from menacing corners close by.
We had played together on ponds as kids and learned a lot about our relative abilities on the ice. I was an eager participant, but had not the remotest idea of trying out for the high school team. I was a scrawny kid with no confidence, living in my very private and troubled world. One day on the corner in a spontaneous act of kindness -- rare in our world of survival and suppressed emotions ‑‑ Tucker Dooley told me that he thought I skated well and should try out for the team. I was truly stunned. Tucker was a gifted player, a leader, and someone to whom I listened. I managed the courage to try, and, to my astonishment, made the team.
It was now nearly 50 years later and the team was coming back together. Fifty years is a long time. There have only been 40 such spans since Christ, 20 since Eric the Red invaded Greenland; 10 since Columbus discovered America (at least the nuns told us he did), 3 since Lincoln died, 2 since the Wright Brothers lifted off, and 1 since us! What lay in store?
We all met on Friday morning at the Fresh Pond municipal golf course parking lot in Cambridge to prepare for the day's activities -- a trip to see the mayor and a visit to the high school. The worst was now over -- we had met, eyed each other, and survived the experience. I recognized everyone. The sizes and shapes were vastly different, but deep into the eyes I could see the same person. Recall is an amazing thing!
The tone was immediately set when Bagger Higgins gave each of us a gimme cap emblazoned in the school colors. On the front it said "Cambridge Latin Hockey;" on the side was "State Champs 1958." Mike Sugrue then gave to each of us -- right there in the parking lot ‑‑ a reproduction of the picture of the team taken with the mayor in 1958. I was moved. It wasn't so much that the gifts were wonderful (which they were), but that Bagger and Mike were willing to show they cared. Something had changed.
We then went by van to Cambridge City Hall. While Harvard "owned" Cambridge, the city government seemed somehow to still be the turf of the Irish and Italians. Walter Sullivan, the mayor, and a young councilman named Dellicui greeted us. Hell, they were the grandchildren of the very same families who ruled the City when we were kids and they closely resembled their forebearers ‑‑ genes work. It was truly surreal. The mayor was gracious, gave us each a key to the City, a proclamation declaring something or other, and posed with us for an exact remake of the 1958 photo that Mike had given us earlier. The Mayor seemed so young that I wanted to pat him on the head!
At the high school we met the hockey coach and some bewildered members of his team, who showed us around. The highlight of the school visit was learning of the rediscovery of the plaque awarded the team in 1958. The search, let the previous week by our own Bob Meehan, was of some magnitude and difficulty. At last it was unearthed in the back of a trophy case in the basement of the building. I had no idea of its previous existence, but in any event the plaque was now again available for true historians of the game. We, of course, insisted that it accompany us for the balance of the weekend as our own Stanley Cup ‑‑ there was, however, no parade.
The next day it was off to Bob Meehan's for a cookout. Bob had a place in Boxford ‑‑ or was it Oxford ‑‑ in any event, it was one of those towns invented since we left. Bob's house was on a lovely lot, heavily wooded, with much grass to cut ‑‑ perfect for the event. Again, the generosity of spirit was overwhelming. Bob had put together a suitably engraved puck for each of us, a sweat shirt that proclaimed in at least three different ways that we were the Champs, a booklet with stories and pictures of our team in action as shown on the Boston sport pages of the time, and a banner proclaiming our feat.
There was surprisingly little alcohol consumed that afternoon; we were not distracted by Saturday football as we might have been at home; we paused for a moment in memory of our two teammates who had died. We talked eagerly with each other as dusk fell and we remembered. What surprised me was the depth of caring and acceptance of each other that seemed to me to pervade the day.
The weekend was not an epiphany. The stars did not align, lives weren't changed forever. It was simply an important moment in time. A small, but important, reprieve. Perhaps the biological lowering of our collective testosterone levels created the appropriate environment. In any event, there was no one else to impress, no person or thing to conquer. We just were. Happy to see each other, connecting, and listening. Like many, I am not certain what I truly believe or what to make of this state of being called life. Nonetheless, a number of things came into somewhat more focus that reunion weekend. Most importantly, that my past really happened and it mattered. I heard others talking of people and events that I, too, recalled. Others who apparently cared for me back then ‑‑ but didn't realize it, or at least couldn't show it ‑‑ had suffered, failed, and succeeded along with me. My past had been validated.
Who were we? We were the insecure kids from the corners who were now grown men facing the last quarter of life (if we were lucky). Most of us had in some manner been pushed out the door by our fathers, or perhaps more broadly our culture, and in one form or another were told to work hard, attain success, maintain integrity, and most of all earn respect. I suppose nearly all of us followed those values with various levels of success.
We, of course, all had now experienced the turmoil and triumphs of a life; that eternal struggle aptly named by the nuns as "this veil of tears." In a small way the weekend suggested additional values to complete the message of our youth. Add caring, empathy, understanding, acceptance ‑‑ all, I supposed, as insufficient ways of saying love. Indeed the weekend may have been an epiphany!
A final reflection: was the current moment in any way connected to that moment nearly half a century ago when 20 kids participated in their own ways in a success they could never have dreamed of? Did this formative experience give our psyches, our spirits, our collective souls a glimpse of hope? Did the collective experience actually affect the way we lived our lives? My guess is, it did.
Maybe this is an old fool doing what old fools have done forever ‑‑ view the past through the evasive and misleading cloud of time. Nonetheless, these two moments in time led me to a conclusion expressed only as an Irishman can--it hadn't been so bad.
RBI V RBIs
BASEBALL BROADCASTER DISPUTE
Dear Steve
Welcome to the TV broadcaster booth. I think you in and Tom do an excellent job but I do have a bone to pick with you.
In listening to baseball for 60 years --20 years growing up in Boston and since 1972 in Dallas-- the abbreviated spoken reference to the plural “runs batted in” was in my experience always RBIs-- as in” Josh Hamilton has 101 RBIs.” Unfortunately and reminiscent of political correctness some broadcasters have introduced into the game grammar correctness. These enlightened folk say “Josh has 100 RBI”!
To my dismay you have introduced this enlightened usage to the Ranger broadcast booth. (I note that Tom Grieve and Eric Nadel use what I believe to be the more traditional “ RBIs”.) Every time I hear “100 RBI”, I feel as though someone is dragging a fingernail across a blackboard. Not only is this new usage grating, it is arguably grammatically incorrect and simply not necessary.
A term like RBI is considered either an acronym or an initialism. These terms, however, are often used interchangeably although there appears to be a technical distinction between the two. An acronym is pronounced as though the word is spelled, for example, NATO, while in an initialism each letter is pronounced individually, for example, FBI. I will treat the two terms in this brief discussion as synonymous.
To start my superficial research, I began with Wikipedia. It's Manual of Style/Abbreviations, Section 2, Acronyms and Initialism concludes that "plural acronyms and initialisms are written with a lower case s." The specific discussion of” Runs Batted In” in Wikipedia states without qualification that “the plural of RBI is RBIs."
Bryan Garner’s book Common Errors in English Usage (2nd ed. November 2008) in discussing the RBI pluralism issue concludes” it is standard to treat the [RBI] initialism as a word and say RBIs …." He refers to similar initialisms to make his point, for example, WMDs or POWs. (Garner is a national expert on legal English usage and has recently co-authored a book on the subject with Supreme Court Justice Anthony Scalia; Garner is a Dallas resident and an enthusiastic sports fan).
Ironically in an attempt to be grammatically correct those who use the plural spoken form "100 RBI" are compounding the grammatical error. Using their apparent logic for "100 RBI", the acronym/initialisms should actually be “RsBI”. Ugh!
While I am sure that the RBI crowd has its arguments, I don't know why the change is necessary. RBIs is certainly grammatically acceptable and what I believe to be the traditional usage. Baseball, of course, is the ultimate sport of tradition. Let's default to tradition.
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Graduation
Graduation
It sure looked and felt like Dallas. A lot of concrete, few trees, and plenty of space. The buildings looked somewhat lonely in the middle of this huge undeveloped tract. It was the sprawling campus of the University of Texas at Dallas, North of Campbell Road in Dallas, Texas. The plans were truly Texas when this enormous piece of land became the University in 1973. The geo-planners of the time have not, however, accomplished their original goals – bigness, brashness, and perhaps even a football team. Along the way, Texas oilmen got greedy, a state awash in oil cash fueled land speculation, Reagan taught us to trust unquestionably the entrepreneur and private markets, our tax base eroded, and you know the rest. Nonetheless, over the past 17 years, 17,000 people have graduated from this place.
I attended the 17th graduation where my wife Caroline received a degree 29 years after she first stepped into a college classroom. I didn't particularly want to go, the kids slept in, and the camera immediately malfunctioned. It was a humid morning with huge thunderclouds and the constant threat of the prairie turning to mud at a moment's notice. We gathered in a concrete courtyard surrounded by concrete buildings – there was no ivy in sight – but there were several thousand people filling the vast courtyard. I was astonished and immediately moved. It was one of those wonderful times for me when I seemed to be part of a place, to feel emotions through others that I deny myself. (Maybe I can change that.)
The procession began. A brass quartet of some sort struck up Pomp and Circumstance. I was perhaps a hundred yards from the stage on the flat even concrete floor. The stage was raised just four or five feet so there was little perspective and it was difficult to see. While thoroughly enjoying the mood and emotion around me – people straining to look, shouting at a graduate in the procession, shoving for position for the right picture – I held back, concerned somehow of being like them. I missed Caroline in the procession.
There were over 600 graduates in the class of 1990, the vast majority of which showed up. The procession also included the 20% of the faculty – with impressive degrees from everywhere: Oxford, Harvard, Berkeley – who were unlucky enough to have it be their lottery year to attend. I suppose there were even a few who wanted to be there.
The speakers began. The president, concerned about the rain, said something to the effect that he wanted to make it quick. The commencement speaker was James Zumberge, the president of the University of Southern California and the former president of SMU. He reigned at SMU during the 70's; as he was introduced I thought of football and scandals. I sat back with the expectation of someone capturing the moment. He didn't. He talked about the growth of the school, the numbers, fundraising, the prospects for a 4-year undergraduate program beginning next fall, and honest-to-God, the possibility of a football team. He talked of the "mature" student who attended UTD – the average age was over thirty, the average hours per semester were nine, many worked days and studied nights, and sort of suggested that with the coming of a four-year undergraduate curriculum, legitimacy was just around the corner. To me, this comments completely missed the point.
There were 600 soon-to-be graduates sitting before the speaker. Each of their lives had been touched by this experience and many had undergone profound change. I wanted the speaker to recognize the depth of that educational experience which, through Caroline, I had personally witnessed. The few students I knew – Caroline at the head of the list – examined the material assigned to them with a passion. They studied and talked and worried about Kafka and Faulkner, Aristotle and Plato, Mann and Goethe, Nietchze and Freud as though they really existed and really wrote those things. They brought a realism to their studies far removed from what I recall of my college days as a post-adolescent. It seems to me this was education as it should be. The speakers, however, missed it all in their futile search for a bigger and better university.
It was Caroline's turn to walk across the stage. Although I learned long ago not to try to read her mind, I've known her for 24 years and on this day I imagined what she was thinking. I suppose she first thought of walking steadily across the stage, shaking hands firmly with the dispenser of diplomas, looking him in the eye, and smiling. Poise and dignity are important. At another level, I bet she was experiencing this ritual conclusion on a more conceptual level, as I was. The end to a significant chapter of a life. The symbolism and tradition of the moment; the link to the millions of graduates who have gone before. The work it took to get there. Although on a day-to-day or hour-to-hour basis much of the study, writing, and thinking was drudgery, in this final scene, the ritual elevated the effort and accomplishment to a level of grandeur.
As I half stood in my chair to see, Caroline confidently walked across the stage, received her diploma, and exited. There were still several hundred to go. I wandered down the side of the crowd, much closer to the stage. I enjoyed watching the expressions on the faces and again imposed my imagination to create their stories. There were a sprinkling of Asians, Blacks and Hispanics. Many had several friends and family members in the audience who would boisterously demonstrate as they walked across the stage. A woman, perhaps in her mid-60's, sitting next to me in her Sunday best, accompanied by her husband dressed in clean cowboy, clanged a cowbell as her student received his diploma.
I actually felt a sense of hope and realized how crucial hope is. A side of me wanted to say "so what"; this brief ceremony will pass, and all of their lives will have the complications, disappointments, hurts, and futilities familiar to us all. I allowed myself, however, to resist the temptation and experience the emotion of the moment. (Are these emotions eternal, am I being fooled one more time, do they have any reality?)
The ceremony was over, we quietly left. I said little to Caroline about my intense experience of the morning. UTD may grow and prosper, hell, it may even have a winning football team. But to me it is a place that has already achieved its true goal of educating and expanding the world of its "mature" students who approach the task with such intensity and seriousness of purpose. I don't know if the university will accomplish the promise of its leaders, as they see it, but I do know that education happened there.
1990
The Curse of the WHAMMM!
The Curse of the WHAMMM!
A terrible scourge is loose upon our land. It is responsible for virtually all of the ills of our civilization. What is this wretched presence? It's the curse of the White Heterosexual American Middle-aged Middle-class Male (the "WHAMMM"!).
The WHAMMM is easy to locate and identify. He can often be found in his study, indiscriminately writing checks in a vain attempt to gain respect. His M.O. is familiar. He entered adolescence at a time when Ike was president, Ozzie and Harriet were on TV, Catholics couldn't eat meat on Friday, Protestants couldn't play much on Sunday, and the president of General Motors was considered successful. He knowingly and maliciously studied in high school and college; he says because he thought hard work would lead to success. Can't you sense the insidiousness of it all? While in school, he even worked part-time; his first overt grab at economic domination. As a young man (notice, not a young person), he feigned admiration for the civil rights efforts of the '60s; it was his way of trying to divide and coopt the movement. He said he mistrusted communism; a hint of his attitude toward the working class. He talked liberal politics, said he liked Jack Kennedy, wore a coat and tie to Church (he often went), and was a virgin for longer than he wanted to be; his first real efforts at dissembling.
As he grew older, he began to subtly discriminate against women by standing when they entered the room, opening doors for them – you know – generally being more polite than he had to be. In college he studied economics and even enjoyed a course in Money and Banking. otherwise, college had the typical pre-WHAMMM diversions; sports, Playboy, male only locker rooms, ROTC and the like.
He then entered the service. He will tell you it was a chance to grow, mature, meet new people, see new places, serve his country. Sure. With the privilege of his commission – bestowed upon him by former WHAMMMs – his development accelerated. He lived in a totally male world, trained in the use of force, learned to give orders, and was waited on by what amounted to indentured servants on the ships, in the clubs, and at the BOQ. After the service, there was graduate school on the GI bill, the evening network news (male anchors only), late nights in the library, Saturday night drinking sprees, Sunday afternoon football, and a pliant wife who worked hard for a paycheck in order to finance this orgy of self-indulgence. The pattern was now developing in earnest.
He completed graduate school, got a job, moved to a new town, and immediately impregnated his wife; several children quickly followed. He promptly abandoned his family for his high-rise office and from time to time seemed to actually enjoy his work – a fact he was constantly required to deny. At the office, he was able to bond with other WHAMMM s (and soon-to-be WHAMMMs) so that in conspiracy with WHAMMMs the country over, they could protect, preserve, and defend their privilege. As time went on, WHAMMMs reluctantly allowed women to enter their domain at the office, but always in limited numbers, never giving up control. His misogynism was always evident. On the surface, he said that women too could become WHAMMMs, and then sabotaged this effort by insisting they do all the things that WHAMMMs required of each other. Rampant heterosexuality began to surface as he clung to his fragile identity.
At first he supported public schools – he says for as long as he could. As he and other WHAMMMs placed their children in the cushy comfort of private schools, he lamely asserted that the metal detectors and body searches scared his children and that the sale of condoms at the middle school field day was not quite right. With this move, he was out of the closet. He was now openly refusing to allow his children to mix with others who were simply different and was directly turning his back on the reproductive freedom of teenagers.
The rest of the story is familiar. He moved from an apartment to the first house and then to the second. As his income grew, he cleverly allowed his expenses to grow yet faster. This had the merit of making those relying on him more reliant still; they were simply being trapped by his guile. He continued to work six days a week. He listened to the State of the Union address each year, paid his taxes virtually as owed, backed the blue, bought massive amounts of luxury goods, cigarettes, and liquor, and rarely ate a meal at home. With his newfound stature, he maneuvered himself into a position where he was almost always able to pick up the check at dinner (in his pre- WHAMMM stage, others beat him to it; he now always seemed to be first). He managed to pay the maximum amounts for social security, Medicare, real estate taxes, sales taxes, ad valorem taxes (of course he bought three cars) and virtually never ran a toll booth. He borrowed heavily (other banking WHAMMMs made credit readily available), and made favored real estate investments in apartment projects with the prospect of huge returns. In short, he had it all.
That's his M.O. Identify him and stop him before it's too late. Raise his taxes, increase his tolls, surcharge his liquor, increase his tuitions, send him additional unsolicited credit cards, impose sales taxes on his services, interrupt his cable TV reception; in short, anything and everything must be done to stop the curse of the WHAMMM. It is for the good of us all.
1990
Sam's Eulogy
Sam's Eulogy
I was Sam's friend and lawyer – in that order. On the surface I suppose we seemed vastly different. Sam – the quiet, thoughtful West Texan from a farming background and me – a quasi-sophisticated Bostonian from a proper Eastern law school. In fact, at our core we were very much alike. My Brooks Brothers suits masked the reality. I was an Irish Catholic kid from an Irish working class neighborhood in Boston and – as Sam – an overachiever. Sam and I both wanted to be successful. We were willing to work hard and, although our wives might not agree, we were able to keep the insanity that we had to deal with in the business world in some perspective. We both liked an occasional Lite beer, a good joke, and each other's company.
During our business relationship, a third person was added to the mix – we became an odd trio indeed. Sam walked into my office one day about 12 or 13 years ago, and had with him a small bespectacled Chinese gentleman who was to become his partner and, as always seems the case with Sam, his dear friend, C.K. Yap. C.K. was ethnic Chinese. He lived in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, maintained offices in Hong Kong and had been educated in London. This Texas farm boy of staunch Presbyterian stock was now being advised by a Boston Irishman and a Buddhist.
Sam and C.K. told me they had decided to buy a mortgage company, that they were trying to locate one, and that they needed my help. While I was thinking of a north Dallas operation, perhaps with offices in Fort Worth, it wasn't long before I spent a month in Hawaii negotiating, along with Sam and C.K., for the purchase of Honolulu Mortgage Company from a Hong Kong conglomerate.
C.K. was very formal in his business relations with others, but that approach simply wasn't possible in his relationship with Sam. Sam treated him as he did all others. He told C.K. what he would do and he did it. Before long, C.K. was ordering Lite beer, eating Mexican food and – idioms aside – telling a pretty good joke. C.K. had become a Stewart convert, and, as was inevitable, came to fully trust Sam. They were often doing business oceans apart and would spend months without seeing each other. In this era of fine print, their relationship turned on a handshake and a promise. Sam was bound and determined to deliver on these promises to his faraway partner and he did every time. It was truly an extraordinary business and personal relationship.
Sam, of course, was an excellent businessman. He used his incredible people skills – his insight – to judge the worth, integrity and credibility of his adversary. If we decided to complete a deal, it was always Sam who would be called on to close the last gap or reconcile the last difference. He could do it because by then everyone in the deal trusted him, even those on the other side.
What was important to me about Sam, however, was not his business success, but his success as a human being. Having a Lite beer together came to us to be a metaphor for our abiding relationship. We were able to tip a Lite beer together in numerous countries around the world. But two of my beer-drinking experiences with Sam stand out in my mind. First, several years ago, I was able to take Sam and Camey, his wife, to an Irish pub down by the wharf in Boston. We truly stayed all night and sang 'em all. If I didn't restrain him, I think Sam might have marched off with the Irish Republican Army that very night. More importantly, we were also able to visit the house I grew up in Boston where members of my family still live. I not only trusted Sam with all of this, I was delighted and honored to invite him into this, my other world.
The last beer drinking episode was just last week. I came down to see Sam; we both understood it was to be our last visit together. He was failing badly and was very uncomfortable. After sitting together silently for a few moments, Sam turned to me and, to my surprise, said "Let's have a Lite beer." His son, Dow, and I exchanged somewhat apprehensive glances. But with a twinkle in his eye and a weak voice, Sam said to Dow, "You know, BEER" – pulling his earlobe – "It rhymes with EAR." Dow being the dutiful son, brought beers to both of us. We toasted each other, clinked glasses, and sipped slowly. I was then able to tell him what his friendship meant to me. I told him that his friendship was unique in my experience because he accepted me for who I was – flaws and all – and trusted me. He somehow communicated this acceptance which helped me believe in myself. I saw Sam give this gift to many others. To me, this is his legacy.
1993